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Sunday, July 03, 2005

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 03:44:58 GMT

PUAHAHHAHAHA i have a new xanga =D

http://www.xanga.com/theshopah0lic

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 16:10:37 GMT

i knew things were too good to be true.. i knew i was going to get my heart broken again.. why do i even try.. why do i love him so much.. he always manages to hurt me somehow.. but i feel as if everything is my fault.. that i wrecked our relationship.. i know so many people will be telling me that he's nothing.. ur too good for him.. but thats not true.. i feel like i've been the worst girlfriend ever.. i can't even keep him happy.. i can't keep him with me.. so what's the point of loving if i can't love him.. what's the point of living if i can't live with him.. i've made him my life.. the one thing i can't live without.. i've destroyed friendships.. i've left people hanging.. i've stopped talking to my friends.. i made it so he's the only thing that's important in my life.. but i guess i was stupid to do that because look where it takes me now.. heartbroken.. friendless and lonely.. i know there are those few people that actually care for me and i thank you all for that.. but i can't say that i'm happy anymore because it's not true.. the one person in my life that made me truely happy doesn't want me anymore.. i've tried so hard.. but i guess that was never good enough for him.. i sit here and cry thinking about him.. thinking about how much i love him and how i want to do things over.. but i know it's too late for that.. he doesn't want to be with me anymore so i have to respect that.. but it doesn't change the way i feel for him.. maybe this is the end of us.. maybe not.. but i'm not going to try to put us back together this time.. this time.. i'll let fate take its course.. this time i just might be able to let go...

Sunday, June 26, 2005

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 17:29:18 GMT

wow its been awhile...

so yeah lately havent done much.. all the seniors graduated on thursday *tear* friday went to sjw carnival with wendy kim ruby oliver robert and jelly... saturday went to swj carnival with ruby and oliver.. and saw jax and chelle and other ppl.. and then went to the beach with oliver and ruby.. we didnt get back till like 3am.. my dad got mad -_- oh well..

i have work today -_- eh.. well okie i wanted to go buy a book iono whos gonna take me *shrugz*

Sunday, June 12, 2005

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 23:04:37 GMT

dont you hate it when you do something and then everyone else wants to do the exact same thing?! yeah..

anyways........

JUNE DCM // SPORTS DAY on the 18th!!! BE THERE!!

also anh MIKE DAY on the 18th!! BE THERE TOO!! lol..

WE NEED TO HAVE OUR TAKE HAI VO TO DISNEYLAND DAY DURING THE SUMMER TOO!!! SO FAR ITS ME ANDY TIFFY AND MAI!!

andy and i need to go shopping and i need to go shopping with tiffy and i need to go shopping with mai.. and anh mike still owes me a mall day

so much to do so little time..

Sunday, June 12, 2005

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 04:38:46 GMT

today was productive.... we had a board meeting.. me henry and sanaz.. and BECKY was there =).. so yeah.. then mai came to pick me up and we headed to santa monica.. but then she saw an in and out and she was super hungry so we got food.. lol... we headed to santa monica and all the people were done with the clean up so we just went to 3rd street.. van nuys and soces people were at hooters so we went there.. then me and mai went to the mall and looked around.. lol.. then elaine ernie and andrew came.. so we chilled in batha nd body works.. funny thing.. mai kept calling it bed bath and beyond.. =P so then we left and mai and i went to get some boba =) and then came to my house so i could make copies for her.. the end =)

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 04:02:46 GMT

i've been getting depressed lately.. and omg i found TWO gray hairs. -_- ...... =( sooooo sad lol.. well yeah.. been thinking too much... i don't really know what to do anymore.. i feel like just giving everything up.. and i mean EVERYTHING.. life is so stressful right now.. and no one understands that.. not my friends.. not my family... no one.. no one really knows what goes on in my life except for maybe two people.. i hate life and all its little surprises.. what good is life if i can't even be happy? nothing makes me happy anymore.. nothing.. my life is depressing.. i haven't been truly happy in so long.. right now.. i feel like my heart is being torn apart slowly piece by piece.. there's no one there to help me.. no one who cares.. so why should i care? who's gonna be there for me after high school is over? how many true friends am i going to have when everyone leaves this place? we make so many promises say so many things.. but do we keep those promises? does anybody really keep the promises they make? what do i do now? where do i go from here? who can i turn to? i've lost so many friends over the past years.. and really i don't care.. it just shows what kind of person they are.. backstabbing, two-faced, hypocrites.. there are so many of them out there.. so many people have lost my trust.. so many people that i now dislike or even hate.. well BOOFUCKINGHOO i don't need that shit. i don't need anything.

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Tue, 07 Jun 2005 22:43:06 GMT

i'm so ready for school to be over.. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyways... lol.. i'm missin my baby right now.. =( on a further note.. IN ART I DON'T HAVE TO DO THAT BLASTED MOSAIC ANYMORE BECAUSE I FINALLY FINISHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha.. okies.. anyways.. i realllllyyyyyyy wanted to sleep in class today.. omg soooo boring.. sorry to kimey and ruby for being quiet and yeah today... KIM I STILL WANT SUSHI!!! lmao.... saturday i'm gonna have a board meeting.. GRRRRR.... and then after going out with the kimeychichi!! =D hmmmmmmmm friday is becky's 17th bday.. WHEEEEEE... i didn't go to school yesterday.. b/c i felt sick and mickey didn't want me to go.. =P hmmmmmmmmmmm i have so much work to do.. ima go CRAZYYY... WOOOO I GET MY SISTER'S CAR WHEN SHE GETS A NEW ONE!!! and then my SC 430 for college!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOO

Sunday, June 05, 2005

Sun, 05 Jun 2005 00:29:14 GMT

I had SATs this morning.. woke up at 6.. got ready.. didn't eat.. got to the place that i was testing.. its like down the street from my house.. and then i get there and i see JUSTINA!! =D yayyy being in KEY Club paid off because i got to see one of the lovely presidents in d25!! =D so yeah we were just sitting there talking.. hahaha i was like "did they call my testing room yet?" and she was like i dunno.. they called like 109, 107, 104, 101 but no 103. i was like what the hell?! they they called it.. lol.. so yeah.. anyways.. 4 hours of testing.. =( justina was making fun of me lol.. its okies though.. then i finsihed!!! yayyy!!! and i called my mommy.. then i called mickey then my mommy came and i went home and ate.. and called mickey again.. and played gb a litttle. and talked to mickey... and took a nap.. yes... a nice progressive day.. lol anyways.. back to random stuffz to do.. gotta look for stuffiez =)

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Wed, 25 May 2005 08:40:04 GMT

Andy Chung: Wow I really didn't think I would be able to get to know the hyper spirited LTG!! I got to become close friends with the GREAT LTG ANDY CHUNG! I came into Key Club my freshman year not knowing anything about Key Club. I went through my first semester of sophomore year knowing a little more than I did before. I went through my second semester of sophomore learning so much more, learning how to be louder and so much more spirited. I wouldn’t be the way I am now if I didn’t see your spirit and dedication to Key Club. I saw how much better Key Club was after my second convention. From there that’s where I got to know you so well, from talks about Key Club to people to the most random things. I think what I remember most from our year together is that one time you were taking me home from August DCM and we were stuck in the car for hours with nothing to do but singing the same songs over and over on the radio, playing I spy and getting the nastiest boba ever (we learned a very valuable lesson that day). I remember the days where we would just hang out and get boba after every DCM or event and hanging out at my house. I’m going to miss all of that so much. I’m not going to see my “brother” at every event. The person that pumps up my spirit, the person I go to events for. Where am I going to be without you? I know you’ll always be there. But not seeing you at least once a month. How will I handle that? I want to thank you for all that you’ve done for me. You gave me thing experience to be the division secretary. You helped me so much over this past year. I’m going to miss you so much. Thanks for letting me know you’re always going to be there. I’m always here for you. If you ever feel sad or lonely you know I’m always happy to help you. You are truly the coolest person I have ever met. Maybe it’s because I don’t see you or talk to you every day but you are a person I will never get sick of a person I will never forget. We always will have our random boba runs and food coma days; we will always have times where we will just want to go to the mall just to look for hot guys. There are times where we just goof off and talk while driving somewhere far. And when we make fun of people hahahhahaha but yeah no one really needs to know about that. All these things we do make me happy, and for that I really have to thank you. Thank you for everything this year. If you feel as if you need to burst out and rant at someone I’m always here. I’m used to it remember? Well what more do I need to say except… I love you Andy.

Tiffany Nguyen: You were that random person that IMed me and wanted to get to know me, and for that I am so thankful. You have become such a great friend being there for me, listening to me when I rant about things. You are like my advisor, a big sister someone I can always turn to. You have been there for me when I couldn’t talk to anyone else. I remember our random talks and talks about life. The time where you MADE ME get ready to go out with you and Mike. I’m going to miss you so much when you’re off at college. Remember I’m a call or IM away. No matter what you are one of those people that I want to know forever and ever. You are such a great person and friend. Where am I going to be without my buddy?! Em yeu Chi! in a friendly way!

Michael Bardo: Wow we’ve been hanging out more huh? Thanks so much for being there always. From cheering with me to taking me home to hanging out to late night talks and helping me calm down and get through my problems. Yeah you’re still going to do all of those things with me except maybe cheer. Thanks so much for everything over this past year. You’re truly a great friend. Yeah you’re still going to be close enough to me to bug so that’s a good thing. If ever you need something I’m always here for you because, you have been such a great friend to me making me laugh all the time helping me with so much taking me out. I’ve had so much fun hanging out with you and I’m so happy we can still hang out. Em yeu Anh nhieu lam. cam ong cho hut ky do Anh lam cho Em. Take into account I’m saying all of this like you’re my brother AND that you write in Vietnamese soooooooooo much better than me..!

Justin Pak: My first impression of you was CRAZY VAN NUYS GUY!! I still see you that way but a little more grown up. You’re always making me laugh every time I see you; you stole my koala at Summer Social with Ryan. You are known as a koala knapper and a thief! I remember the ransomed letter you wrote to the Division. That was the funniest thing ever. I’m going to miss you but you’re only going to be at UCLA. So hopefully I’ll see you once in a while. We always have karaoke with Andy!

Ryan Lew: I will always remember you as a KOALA THIEF (see the bottom of the hat I made you). The person that always tried to steal my koala, the one that tried to steal my koala while at my house and you put it under your shirt and I didn’t notice until we got to panda express. Yes those were the days. Ahhh we had some great days where we didn’t really do anything for Andy. We were just there. I did minutes and well you were just there. Haha I hope you have the greatest life ever!!

To the Class of ’05: Damn you Key Club Seniors! You are all finished. No more dealing with club duties and members. But now it’s on to bigger and better things in life. Whatever you all may do in the future I hope you do the best you can. I know every single one of you will succeed and be the best whatever you want to be. This year I’m so happy to have met so many of you. No matter who you are I will probably remember you a few years from now. Just don’t be sad if I don’t remember you at first. But anyways, I hope you all have had a lot of great experiences and that your last year of Key Club and High School for that matter was the most memorable experience you have ever had.

To the Class of ’06: We have one more year guys! But in a few months we’ll be dealing with colleges where to apply which ones fit best into what we want to do with life. Choosing a place that will be your home for another 4 or more years depending on what you want to do. Or maybe 3 years if you were just that smart in high school… but anyways. Just bare with this one last year of Key Club and High School I promise that it will be the best year of our lives. I met so many people that will be graduating the same time I will be and you all are some of the coolest people I’ve ever met.

To Everyone else: the rest of you are in for another 2 or 3 years of Key Club and school I hope you all make Key Club the best it can be. But remember you still need to do well in school. School comes before the extracurricular activities. Make these next few years the best you’ve ever had because you only live this life once.

Kento: yayyyyy we have another year together! We can still check out them hot ones together and see who is straight or not puahaha!! We’re gonna have good times this year! We won’t miss Andy much we’ll probably see him every week!! Lol

Vickee: Woooooooooooo you are tooooo cool!! Lol I <3 you Vickee let’s make our last year the best! Remember we have to go to HIN next year again with Mike! Puahaha let’s see if he fixes up his car by then.

Tata: You are tooo cute!! Omg you are the sweetest person I’ve ever met! One more year Tata!!! Ahhhhh we’ll find another hot guy to drool over =)

Gigi: ahhhh you’re toooo cute too!! Hahaha I seriously need to get to know you BETTER this year!!! =)

Mai Le: I have saved the best for last. Mai you are truly a unique person. You never fail to make me laugh with your ditziness. I’ll be there for you throughout the year to catch you don’t worry haha. You are amazing and you will take this division to the top once again. We’ll unlock the treasure of service together! Lol. We have our boba runs and food coma days to look forward to and our long hours of work. Oh wait that’s just you. I’m just here to make copies for you and to take minutes. Lol. Unless you want to make me actually do work! Lol.. anyways this year is going to be great don’t worry I just know it!

Friday, May 20, 2005

Fri, 20 May 2005 04:01:29 GMT

okie so today school was once again boring.. took the tests and went to periods 2, 4, and 6.. woooo we had a chill ass kickback day!! anyways.. after school andy picks me up and what does he have MY FAVORITE BOBA EVER!!! lychee slush with boba and coconut jelly!! omg he remembered!! after saying OMG I LOVE YOU like a bajillion times we go on the free way and headed to cerritos where there was soooo muchhh traffic it was like OMG!! so after two and a half hours in the car and lots of talking and having funnn and calling mai.. we made it to guppy's and being the nerdy asians that we are.. me and andy were there first.. lol.. then james cindy and will came then mussarat and then john and then suzy and cindy's friends.. so yeah we ate our food which was soooo good!! and talked and laughed and had lots of funnn!! omg it was funnnnn!! lol.. wow i was the youngest out of everyone and they were all LTGs i felt so out of place but they're super cool people!! haha... so yeah me and andy headed out around 8:20 and we talked and talked and had funn and talked and drove around a bit and then he dropped me off at home.. YAY ANDY!! I LOVEEEE YOUUU!!! thanks for the funnezz day!!! <33333